Resolve for the Dark Ages

We are living in a tired time. Media keeps us doped up and dumbed down with industrialized chaos, exploiting mans search for self by blurring his path and drugging his mind. Youth is wasted on the young and perhaps wisdom now wasted with age. There is a certain fate we are doomed to if one cannot begin to recognize self not as the individual but rather as the constituent, a part of a whole, whose actions and reactions are part of a global livelihood. 

Our politics are failing us, turning us against each other, basing the structure of society on a criminal system that wastes money, energy, and resources in an attempt to gain power. The United States has lost its sovereignty and what used to be a mighty nation is now looked at as an embarrassing joke by so much of the world. 

Rome crumbled from within, as have so many great entities. We are all human, so silly and naive in the daily destruction we do to ourselves and each other. Here’s a concept, why dont we all stop trying to fix the other and just find peace within ourselves. This is no novel notion. Though it seems to be one still not practiced to the extent that could finally breech the modern mayhem and provide an expanded peace to all earthkind. 

We are destroying our home, engrossed in material dependency, and the fascination of evil. It is a shift in focus that is upon us. To be a witness to the beautiful shift taking place is a special honor I feel so privileged to hold. With so much civil and environmental unrest, there is, thankfully, an element of enlightened evolution. People are, in fact, starting to get it. And even better, starting to do something about the problems. Still though, the output needed to push against such a strong force is exhausting and easily overpowered. The hundredth monkey theory proves that mind sets are contagious. 

So let’s continue to free our minds. Open to the possibilities of a new way to life and even further, focus on what those possibilities are. 2012 has all the hype to actually undergo a massive changed if only based upon the placebo concept of enough people believing something so much that it becomes true. 

Do not let this change happen without putting your power into it happening well. We are all energy. All part of the life that feeds every being on this planet and makes up the planet itself. As a united internation, may we build a strong force for good by being that which we wish to see in the world, and encouraging transcendence to love through that way of existence. Live by example, dont spit your enlightened self all over everyone, simply invite them to love by showing your own. 

The change is upon us. And it has potential to be what we make it to be. Dwell on being well. Imagine the wonder that is to come and feel it with every cell in your body. 

The Light Age is upon us... Believe.... Take Actions..... Trust love........

Thank You

Thank you Nancy Ruby, for being a mother, a friend, a mentor, and a guide. You are me. I am you. This makes me so proud. Thank you Pius Ruby for being my father, setting a high bar for the rest of the men that enter my world. Thank you Ruby Chase O'neil for being. The simple fact that you exist makes me smile. And the way you exist makes me sing. You are my star. My soul mate. My sister. A beautiful songbird and my other half. Thank you Jenny Rose. My heartsong. My best friend. A powerhouse and teacher like I have never had before. Thank you Adrian Nicholas for making my dreams come true. You have changed my life and brought me such joy and fulfillment. Let's dance, you and I. Mahalo to Robin Mazor, G-ma. I love you like crazy and am so honored to play the role of granddaughter. Thank you for all the unconditional love and support. Thank you for believing in me. THANK YOU Hana Munay for coming into my life with the goofy grace and intellectual awesome sauciness that you are. I look forward to Being Human with you. Thank you Shane and Nayeva for providing sacred, potent space for people to pray and connect with each other, this earth, and spirit. Thank you James Mauk for being the truest version of you, and for caring for me. Thank you Grandpa Tashi for being. Thank you Jericho for being absolutely you, strong and radiant. Thank you beautiful Aerial for dance. Thank you Crystal for the epic haircut. Thank you Micah for healing wisdom. Thanks to Tim and Alyssa for being a god example of love and commitment. Thank you Maren Studer for being a friend. Thank you Bridger Jakson for loving me so deeply. Thank you Amity for your glowing embers, your perseverance and your friendship. I look forward to traveling and growing to know you more. Thank you Aunti Gina for being the best aunti ever! I miss you! Thank you Marge Ruby for being my Gammy. Thank you Eli. You are loved. You are love. You are earth. Thank you Richard Diamond. Thank you Lee Joseph for your words and ways. Thank you Julien, DJ Joulz, star child. So glad you stayed on the island. We have a special destiny. Thank you Ivonne for being a refection. Thank you Kaia for your SHINE. Mahalo Dandelion for your meow. Thank you Terri for your friendship. Thank you Faith for your passion. Thank you aunti Lisa for sharing your story. Thank you Sicily for being my sis. Thank you Mama Kauai for the blessings and beauty you share with me. I could not ask for a better home. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for all that is, all that has been and all that is to come. So much to be grateful for and wishing to express appreciation to all. Huge Mahalo to those I havent included. You are no less than loved. Gracias Gracies Gracias. Thank you for everything. 

LAST NIGHT

Last night I wanted to tell him how much I love him, to share with him that I want no one else and how much I absolutely enjoy his company. I thought it was time to open my heart and give it to him freely and fully.

Then I felt her. Deep in the core of myself I could so viscerally sense her. I went to her. I held her. And I realized that she is the only one I wish to truly commit to. She is the one who is worthy of all the love I hold. She is beauty. And inspiration. With her I can be my truest self, never experiencing doubt or awkwardness because I am so sure that she accepts every part of me.

I met her at her worst and quickly grew to love her. We are connected, carrying one another in our hearts. No man, however wonderful, could compare to the bond we have formed in the last year.

I still want to show my love to him, and I will do that through my actions. By using my energy and integrity to convey the deep affection I hold. And, no promise need be made right now. Because I am young. And I have me. And I have her.

My friend. My love. My Heartsong.

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WE CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST. 
WE CAN FIX THE FUTURE. 

Can you hear the colors...?

Tonight we spoke of Synesthesia, a power some people possess that enables them to detect stimulation with multiple sensation.

Imagine... Seeing a melody, tasting poetry, feeling a painting. 

This seems, to me, to be an evolutionary development in which we are able to expand our experience of this life and absorb more of this existence. 

Play with it a bit. Let your imagination create for you a world full of dancing colors, scented words, and melodic kisses. It turns up the volume and increases the juicy delight that is life. 

~see. hear. smell. taste. touch~

Aunti who has AIDS

"Shoots, if I looked any better, people would start to WISH they had what I had." These were the first words I heard come sassing out of her mouth. She speaks with an attitude and brings attention to every word. Her body is light and strong. She speaks a thousand miles an hour and her stories take you around the world and back in time. She hops all over the place, each detail containing a story within itself. Each story holding a flood of emotion. She laughs and cries and carries on. 

She has AIDS. Actually, at this time she is HIV positive. AIDS is when your T-cell count is under 200 and at this moment this courageous woman flies high with a 600 count. She was diagnosed with this condition a year ago. In that year, and in all her years, my new Aunti has been through hell and back. 

Her ability to speak about the experience of carrying AIDS demands respect and empathy. She is proud to share her story now. It took one year of intense healing in both the body and the heart. Now she is ready to share her journey. 

It's all G!

And he told me I had done alright and kissed me till the morning light...

We are but what we are to others. Or are we of ourselves? I wish to be me. Simple and free. And also aim to share my soul with those who dare to care.  How I present myself is a reflection of another. For we are all eachother. As with a lover, when our beauty and sexuality illuminates from within, giving off a glow that answers the constant quandary of life.  So though we may remain strong in our ways and hold true to our deepest self, it is how we be to those we love that truly defines us. They say action speaks stronger than words. Both are a mighty force. May I love each one that crosses my path, making space for exploring the depth that is the spirit.